In the next few months, we'll be moving. There are still some details to work out but that's the plan. And I'm not gonna lie... I am super excited. Excited to see our new home, and fill it with love, and create memories, and decorate, and...
So I have been on Pinterest more than I care to admit the past week or so, pinning things that I planned on doing in my new house. New curtains, new bedspread perhaps, paint colors, art work to hang, etc... It's crazy how materialism creeps in. It's one of the ploys Satan uses, esp. on me, to entice Christians to take our focus off of Him.
Ugh.
And then after reading my friend Lindsay's post, I stumbled here. Not coincidental, seeing as how I've been wrestling with the idea of moving. And feeling the pull of materialism. I read the post, and within minutes, tears filled my eyes. And began to roll down my cheek, signs of conviction. And my heart broke.
How can I care so much about the things in the life that don't matter? Things that one day will not matter in the least. No one, including myself, will look back at my life and say, 'well but she was crafty!' Or 'she bought such a nice bedspread!' That won't matter one single bit when Jesus comes back.... it will be the furthest thing in our minds. How we brought Him glory, how we loved on His poeple, will be what we, and others, remember most.
And yet, here I have been pinning while children and their families in other parts of the world live in filthy poverty.
How can I say I love the Lord with all of my heart and yet, I don't follow His commands to love my neighbor? How can I say that I will follow Him completely while I sit back and think of the home I desire more than helping my brothers and sisters around the world?
I'm not saying I have all the answers, not by any means. But I am saying that what I'm doing today is not glorifying Him by helping others. My hope and prayer, above anything else, is that God would use my husband, myself and children to share His gospel with others. That was the calling that my husband got almost 2 years ago that led him to Bible school. And hopefully, his knowledge and desire for sharing His word will send us on a long term mission. That's what my husband and I desire more than anything; to share God's love to others who don't know Him. That may be here in America, or that may be in Haiti as the blog above mentioned. But above all, we want to be used by God.
Because we haven't been called elsewhere at this point, we believe we are supposed to be here, right where God has us. And when the time is right, and if that's in his will, He will move us elsewhere. Until then though, I'm going to do the only thing I can and remove myself from distractions... namely, Pinterest.
It sounds silly to say that I'll be doing a Pinterest fast, as if that could change world hunger and poverty, but that's what God has laid upon my heart. Maybe it's so I'll focus my time and energy on praying and reading His word more. Or maybe it's because it'll free up a little time to love on others. Or maybe it's because it will allow me to take stock of the immeasurable blessings He has given us so that I won't long for more; so that I'll be 100% content in His love and not on things of this world.
Whatever it is, I want to obey. It's not serving others in a Third World nation, but it's a step in the right direction...